Relentless suffering

So back in last year John got in touch to query if I'd be up for a slightly different run, which took three events that were being held on one day at a venue called Rockingham castle, where you could do all three races in the space of one day. Ten miles, 10k and a 6k, so around nineteen miles or so I thought.

As time went on, there was literally no information being released about what to expect, aside from an email with entry number and a little more to say not less than twenty miles, which given I'd done double laps at Tough Mudder which were about eleven didn't seem so bad.

I did think about doing training for this as I also want to be able to complete three laps of a Tough Mudder course this year which could be thirty six miles. Sadly my training was put on hold when an old injury decided to flare up, then after that seemed to subside, I had problems with my legs. So needless to say not a lot of training has been done.

Got down to Nottingham and John picked me up, then we headed over to the hotel which was a lovely Hilton place. Got settled in and then headed out for the meal. We met up with Gaz and Evee or rather puffin muffin to give him his full title. I went with a large mixed grill, tiny steak, gammon, chicken, chips sausage mushroom and egg, very nice if the steak was a weird shape. A couple of Guinness and black and we were chatting to our own groups,  although it only changed when I mentioned the Arctic marathon which has a $15,000 entry fee, which puts Tough Mudder's entry fee into the shade a touch.

We chatted amongst ourselves and someone suggested sending salad to the other table, with 22 forks, or a steak shaped lettuce, basically a lot of talk about lettuce. We eventually finished and after a second portion of chips. We headed over to the hotel and got off to bed after John got his waiver and entry number printed off.

I was out like a light and woke a couple of times due to the bed being so warm but got a good night's sleep. Woke around 6 and got ourselves down for breakfast, more sausage, eggs, beans and hashbrowns.

We walked over to the event site and got ourselves into the reception area to collect race number, timing chip and wristband, waited a bit in the tent set aside for relentless suffering entrants, a sort of food and drinks station. The warm up talk seemed important but no one was really listening, then a warm up, which I took part in as it was a bit chilly, then we were a bit delayed in starting people off so we finally set off at 9:30 which was alright as they were delaying the time you had to be setting off for the last run.

The first obstacle was a small triangle wall to climb over, which was easy then a slightly taller one, again not too bad, we then had our first varying obstacle, water barrels before into a really cold stream to walk along before some press ups before having a bunch of metal barriers to clamber over which was physically draining, then more stream and a skip of water which had a drop into the skip and a jump off the end of it which was pretty unsafe, especially as you had to use the edge of the skip to get out.

Most of the other obstacles were a combination of carrying things cargo net and mud. We got through a forest section and it seems someone removed the signs, so we ended up going in the wrong direction and having to turn back after finding we'd missed the sandbag carry, so back over the course we headed and found it, it also meant we got to so the kettle bell drag.

It turns out we were carrying 40kg bags of sand up and down a hill eight times, the hill had an incline of around 45° or more angle, Gaz and John had enough and decided to take the forfeit, which was less than the 25 press ups I ended doing by completing the obstacle. They went on ahead as they wanted to get into the OCR championship, I just wanted to finish it. I don't know how long it took me but it must have been close to ¾ of an hour easily, towards the end I was just resting at the top, finally back on track I skipped the part that we had already done.

I continued running and occasionally walking until the next obstacles but they all pretty much blended into each other after this point where they were climb over something or carry something. I did manage to split my shorts on the tyre flip as they were stuck in mud. I eventually gave up with obstacles as I had no energy left and my motivation to do them was in the toilet so I took the forfeits.

I finally saw the finish line and four walls to climb over so I just walked past basically going "yeah, screw that, I'm done" before crossing the line after five hours and forty minutes, which for eighteen and a half miles seems quite long, especially as I can usually do Tough Mudder in three and a half.

Aside from the slight issues I had with safety and people not really helping each other, it was definitely something that was challenging and I'm glad I took part, I just wish I knew how hard it might have been before hand and that we hadn't gone in the future wrong direction, I might be up for doing it again next year, possibly over two days instead if just the one.

Training plan

So after I managed to do one run in December which was disappointing but you know how brains can be with the horrible wet weather and a total lack of motivation. I decided last week that I would get back to training for the upcoming Tough Mudder season, so I need to actually get my self out there and put some miles under my feet.

The first run was appalling, I felt awful afterwards but this comes from doing literally no exercise in months and only running at Tough Mudder events, still I persevered and headed out again on the Tuesday for a little longer this time feeling just as bad, though not wheezing as much as from the previous run, then I decided I would make Sunday my last run of the week and for the time being stick to three days during the week, until I'm feeling stronger and I can handle more days per week, when I'm recovering a lot quicker.

I also gave a few chin ups a try as I'll need to work on that, so I can get myself over the obstacles, I'm sitting here writing this having caused myself a mischief in my shoulder, lifting slightly heavier things upwards is uncomfortable, so I'll need to be careful and perhaps wait to start pulling off chin ups when I'm a little lighter.

It was suggested by my friend John that we could do the Relentless suffering, which is one of a number of new obstacle course runs/races that have popped up in the wake of the popularity of Tough Mudder and prior to the Tough Guy, so I'm off to Rockingham castle in March to take part, they do three runs in one day, a ten mile, a 10k and a 5k, so if you do all three in the one day, you get classed as a legend and get an extra t-shirt and medal, given I've managed to get two laps in on three Tough Mudder course this year, nineteen miles shouldn't be too much of a problem.

So as today is Tuesday, it run day although the wind is pretty strong out there so it should make for an interesting run, I may have to change my route slightly to avoid as much wind as possible.

First time Tough Mudders.

So you've taken the plunge and signed up for Tough Mudder, either because your friends challenged you or as someone I spoke to suggested because they were drunk one new years eve. So what's next, how do you prepare for one of the toughest things you'll ever do. The first thing you need to know is it will be 11 to 12 miles of either potentially bone dry cross country or something more akin to a water sodden, energy sapping bog, that will quite literally pull the trainers off your feet.

As with everything preparation is key, you don't need the fanciest trainers, or running gear, just something comfortable to wear on your feet that you don't mind getting covered in mud and filled with grit.

Event clothing:
My current kit for taking part consists of a compression top, which is a tight lycra t-shirt you can pick up for about £20, well worth having as there are pools of water that can be pretty cold and that's not including the Arctic Enema ice bath and this will help you retain heat in the manner of a wetsuit. A previous tough mudder finisher t-shirt but any quick drying running top will work just as well, the main thing is to ensure you stay relatively warm after being in water, or if it rains on the day. A pair of shorts, comfortable socks, a pair of trail running shoes, which have toe protection as well as supposedly good grip on the soles and a pair of gloves, a simple fingerless pair with a bit of padding should do the trick, you can get away without wearing them but they are useful to protect your palms, when you are helping people get over walls and they stand on your palms for a boost.

I wear a camelbak water bottle, there are water stations on the course but I like to carry my own supply, since hydration is very important, I also take energy gels with me just to give me a little boost around the 4 and 8 mile points, any running or fitness shop should have these, just find a flavour you like.

The one thing I can't stress enough is No Cotton, seriously, No Cotton, it will soak up the water and will not dry out (unless its a red hot day) it will weigh you down and keep you cold, which is the worst feeling to have when running around the course as your morale will sink through the floor and you will hate taking part. Trust me, I hated my first event because of cotton gear, so I didn't enjoy it as much as I could have. Another thing for the ladies, last year I saw a number of ladies wearing, yoga pants to take part, I'd suggest, unless you like showing off your legs and bottoms, where your yoga pants have worn away, don't wear them, a lot of the course will have you sliding down hills or crawling on your stomach, so thin material tends to wear through really easily.

Training:
For the training side of things, there are some obstacles you simply can't prepare for, you just have to go for it and hope for the best. I would suggest running, get as many miles under your feet as you can, start with a short distance if you've done no training or haven't ran in a while, perhaps 2-3 miles per run and build it around a mile more each week until you can do 12 in one run, speed isn't the point here, its stamina, you need to be able to complete the course, so being able to actually run 12 miles is important, it will also help with your recovery after the event as 12 miles plus obstacles takes a toll on an unprepared body.
You need to be able to pull yourself over walls and through mud, you will get help to get over things but ultimately, you need to have the strength to conquer Everest or the Hero walls, so get doing some push ups, or if you can get one, a chin up bar and start getting yourself lifted off the ground, again, take it a few at time and build up to as many as you can do in one go.
Finally stamina, this will mean you'll have the strength of will to get yourself around the course, so if you can find a fitness class or some kind of stamina building plan and get to it.

The Obstacles:
There are a variety of obstacle types at Tough Mudder events, I've broken them down into the various types.

Water based:
Arctic Enema - There is no preparation for this event outside of filling your bath with a lot of ice and water, this is cold and you simply get into the ice water and over the barrier in the middle and out again as quickly as you can.

Cage Crawl - You lie on your back and pull yourself though a trench of water using a cage to do this, my advice is to look over a shoulder to see where the next piece of wood is so that you don't bump your head.

Greased Lightning - A huge water slide into a pool of water, what's not to love about that.

King Of The Swingers - This has replaced Walk the plank and you now swing out and try and hit a bell before landing in a large plunge pool.

Island Hopping - You jump from floating platform to floating platform trying not to fall in the water, my advice is to reach for the next platform and get your feet onto it, or if you have really good balance try jumping from platform to platform.

Underwater Tunnels - Three sets of barrels placed on a body of water that you duck your head under, depending on the depth of the water and the temperature can occasionally be easy to do.

Strength based:
Balls To The Wall - Using a rope that can be quite slick with mud to get up a wall that's around 12-15 foot high, my advice get a good grip and don't look down, the back of the obstacle has lats you can climb down like a ladder.

Birth Canal - A new obstacle that has you pinned down and you have to fight your way through to reach the end, upper body strength seems like a must.

Boa Constrictor - A tight squeeze that's easy on the down tube but such a small space that you have to inch your way up the other side, my advice is to stick your feet into the grooves in the tube and use your forearms to pull yourself up.

Funky Monkey - This one needs good grip and a bit of momentum, my advice is to have dry hands and to try and keep hold.

Hangin’ Tough - A set of rings that you traverse like funky monkey except the rings are quite slick to the touch and its difficult to keep your grip.

Hero Walls - Very high walls that you need to be able to physically get yourself over after the initial boost from your team, my advice is to get some upper body strength training.

Hold Your Wood - This is now a 4 person team effort to carry a very large piece of wood around part of the course, previously it was small enough for one person to do this on their own.

The Hangover - These were previously the glory blades but they've increased the height and make it more of a team effort to get people over.

The Liberator - This one requires you to traverse a peg board using a lot of upper body strength and your feet to stabilise yourself.

Crawling based:
Mud Mile - Sometimes this is muddy, sometimes this is really muddy and forces you to crawl and get over mounds of mud with the help of others, my advice is to embrace the mud and have fun.

Kiss Of Mud - This has you crawling in the mud under barbed wire, with an addition of hay bails to crawl over this year.

Team work based:
Everest - Run towards the ramp at a steady sprint and keep running until you reach a hand and hold on for dear life helping them to help you up and over the top.

Pyramid Scheme - You need to stand on the shoulders of other people to get over this obstacle, which defines teamwork.

No training:
Cry Baby - This is tear gas, there is no training for this one.

Ring Of Fire - Slide down the firepole into a pool of water.

Electroshock Therapy - This one has no training you can do, you simply make it through as best you can, I normally get knocked out with this one but I have had static like shock going through, if you take it at speed and get knocked out, you will face plant, find your own way through this one.

So I've offered my thoughts and advice on Tough Mudder, the important thing is to enjoy the day and see what you're made of, then you can get your friends to take part and show them how much fun it is.

Tough Mudder Part 1

I'd heard about the Tough Mudder when I was sat in the pub chatting to Chris, who that mentioned someone he knew was doing it, so I thought I would look into it as it sounded like hellish fun. I opted for the November one as it would give me enough time to train and get together the money for competing. Well the training part never actually happened aside from fitness classes and hitting the gym.As it was going to be awkward to get to the event on the day, as I wanted to be refreshed, I decided to stay over on a campsite the night before. 

The morning arrived and as there were no buses or metros at that time in the morning, it was a taxi ride over to town, weirdly the taxi driver used to be our milkman way back when. I'm also glad I had a jumper with me as Newcastle central station is a cold place at 5am. Although I was waiting around I was glad to not be sprinting to catch the train like I normally am whenever travelling this way.

The journey went as most do, although a low point of the journey was managing to tear off one of the earpieces to my headphones, halfway into the journey leaving me with no music or video option it would also happen to be my better pair of headphones. A highlight would be getting off the train and finding a fiver on the platform at Manchester station.

I eventually arrived at Wrenbury and it turned out to be a tiny little village, so not very much there but it seemed nice enough. I got the tent setup in the site at the Cotton Arms and met Mark and Tom, two guys who did a Tough Mudder in Scotland, they told me the sort of thing I should expect tomorrow and how their first one went.
They've said a lift would be ok but might be cutting it fine for my start time, still its a lift there.

I decided that I would have a walk up to the Mudder site to see about pushing my time back which was a rather long four mile walk up to Mudder site road, a wander round looking for an official and then a long walk back via the Cholmondley arms, then after a pint and bumping into Mark and Tom, I headed back to the campsite when I noticed that Chorley was only a mile away from the turning onto the campsite road so I thought I might have a look and that's where the problems started. There is literally nothing there except some houses and a postbox, after a while walking down the road I decided to try crossing the field to get back onto my original road. This simple task took me the best part of two or so hours, I had no battery so couldn't check maps, I ended up walking in the dark and managing to step in several pools of mud, which made me glad I was wearing them for the run.

I managed to get sort of cleaned up and made some food, before heading to the pub to secretly charge my phone, make use of the WiFi and enjoy a few drinks, I did discover that I had crossed four fields and walked through a dairy farm, I didn't take part in the pub quiz and decided to retire to bed. This was when the problems started, it seems I'd forgotten to tie the tent inner to the poles and it had leaked in quite considerably. I managed to use a water bottle to bail out most of it and discovered it was still leaking in and realised what I had done, so after tying the inner up I went to bed. It was only when I was woken by a feeling of damp that I discovered more pools of water so I bailed them out again, this continued all through the night with either the church bells or feeling of cold wetness waking me up. It seems my plan of a restful night went right out of the window.

Eventually the alarm sounded and I decided to get up, try and get warm. I had a chat with the gents from another tent who were doing the run and borrowed a couple of carrier bags to line my shoes and warm my feet, this didn't quite work so I popped on a pair of socks which still had little effect but I knew it might help during the run. After my packing up my gear, I waited for Mark and Tom to arise before wandering over, for my lift. We got to the car park, as they were getting changed I said I would meet them at the starting area and wandered towards it. After picking up my participant pack, I quickly phoned home and got myself ready.

Part Two

Tough Mudder Part 2

I arrived at the Mudder reception area and collected my run pack from registration, this contained the usual run number and a band for my bag and one for my wrist. Once my bag was stowed I decided to have a quick look around the reception area and see the sort of costumes people were wearing, there were some, mankinis, some spartan warriors, some shirtless men, a few blokes in dresses and a lot of people wearing cold weather running gear, I did wonder if my knee length shorts and t-shirt vest top combination would be warm enough but I thought I'll be warm enough running, it shouldn't be a problem, it was only after I was standing at the starting line that I realised I was still wearing my glasses, so I had to stow them in my pocket and hope that I wouldn't lose them.

There was a bloke who was psyching the crowd up with the Mudder commandments and getting us to make a lot of noise, jump up and down to eye of the tiger and generally ready ourselves for the off. Once 10:20 came round the run started with everyone setting off at a nice easy pace, I realised that I would need to tie my shoes a bit tighter after nearly losing one in the first body of ankle deep mud.

After a slight muddy incline, we hit the first proper obstacle, the Kiss of Mud which was a crawl under barbed wire up an incline, this almost skinned my knees and elbows, then some more mud and onto the Arctic Enema, which is a large tank filled with water that you have to duck under a bar and climb out, it also happens to be filled with ice, so after jumping in I was paralysed through shortness of breathe and the fear/realisation that it was going to get worse with my head under the water, it took a good 30 seconds to psyche myself up to do this, after I surfaced I felt very awake and in quite a bit of discomfort but I plodded on through the mud to the next obstacle the Hay Bales which were very easy, in fact the easiest obstacle of the whole course.

We then hit the ankle deep mud on country tracks that a lot of people were avoiding running through, then onto Mud Mile which was a large body of water with some hidden depths and mud mounds to climb over, then more very muddy tracks, the Trench Warfare had us on our bellies through earth covered tunnels and out into a deep pool, which contained yet more hidden depths to dunk us. After a bit more running through ankle deep mud, (I'm guessing you're sensing a theme of lots of mud with this event) we passed a water station which I didn't bother with as I decided to carry my camelbak with me so I could drink at any point, then it was the Spiderweb, which was a really easy cargo net to climb, with people holding it at the bottom for others climbing, there was a little wait for this one but not too long, we emerged from the forest after this and that's when we hit Walk The Plank.

This obstacle required you to climb up to a very high platform before launching yourself off into a huge pool of water, people were helping other up to the top which was great to see, then after a short wait for people to be out of the way, I jumped in, I reasoned that it couldn't be as cold as the ice bath but I was wrong. I hit the water and realised that it was in fact colder than the arctic enema and you couldn't touch the bottom, so I was left incredibly short of breath and fighting to reach the rope ladder to get myself out of the water, after a few choices words I jogged onto the second Kiss of Mud which although on level ground was much muddier than the first one, then into another body of muddy water with hidden depths and onto the Berlin walls.

These were 8 foot walls that required the assistance of others to get over, I helped one bloke get over and then someone else helped me, with a drop onto hay on the other side, then another wall to help/be helped over, I then jogged onto the next obstacle, which was the Underwater Tunnels.  I reasoned to myself that this shouldn't be so cold as the outside temperature seemed to be warning up, with the sun coming out but I was quickly proved wrong, I stood next to the first of the three barrels and tried psyching myself up for about 30 seconds, the safety supervisor kept mentioning that it would only get colder the longer I stood there but I knew that I could handle the cold water up to my chest and mentioned this to them, like the first water obstacle I knew that it would be worse going under the water, I allowed a few others to pass before finally getting up the nerve to go for it, I reached the second set of barrels and waited around 15 seconds or so before ducking under, I even helped psyche up another person, shouting "you're a champion", with the final set of barrels I just ducked straight under so I was out of the water.

I then jogged onto the Boa Constrictor which was a crawl through a tunnel downhill to a shallow pool and up another tunnel, then a short jog which passed a huge dip into a river, then after a short jog down into another one. I then hit the Ball Shrinker which was a set of cables suspended over a lake, where you had to pull yourself across, although it was in water, it didn't have me putting my head under, so it was bearable. After getting out the water and climbing the slight muddy incline, I was onto a short run along a footpath, shaking my arms to warm myself up, another person asked "how are you", "really cold I replied back", he then said "come on, start running it'll warm you up", so he had me jogging along with him to try and warm me up, which I was grateful for, we reached the second Berlin/Hero walls which were a good 10 to 15 foot high, he helped my get over both walls before running off, leaving my to jog on through the mud and onto Log Jammin, which was a duck and climb over a series of tree logs, then along a muddy track to hold your wood which is where you carry a rather heavy piece of a tree, over a muddy section of the course, before dumping it back where you collected it from.

At this point in the run, I was starting to really tire, as I'd elected to wear knee length cotton shorts and a cotton t-shirt & vest combination, which proved to be a very bad idea, as the shorts were getting really heavy to run in. I jog along the track and reached a water station/medical tent and noticed others with heat blankets, so I asked for one of those and then headed onto the Twinkle Toes which was a tree trunks suspended over water, I managed to fall off and walked out of the water, trying to avoid falling over. From that point I started to walk the rest of the way. The Mud Maze would have been great fun, climbing over mounds of mud and into chest deep pools of water but I was starting to get cold even with the heat blanket so I eased myself into each pool and carefully picked my way through to avoid falling, it was cold enough to give me a slight cramp in my calf muscle, which I luckily managed to ease. I approached the Funky Monkey bar crossing and finding the bars slick with mud, decided to just ease myself into the water and walk across, only a couple of people managed to almost make it across.

As I was cold and had my heat blanket I avoided the Electric Eel, a crawl under electric wires, I should have left it to one side and collected it after I'd done the obstacle but I just didn't feel up to it, though speaking to a couple of people afterwards it wasn't too bad, in the way of shocks, I merely plodded onto the steep hill climb of the Cliffhanger, this was a long but relatively easy part of the course, winding around the forest and over a field, before a short walk in my case to the queue for the quarter pipe known as Everest. As this requires running full steam toward and up the quarter pipe before either launching yourself to the top or towards a set of helping hands, a lot of people don't make it the first few times, there is quite a large amount of people waiting to take their turn to get over, as I had to get back to the station to catch my train, I didn't have much time, so I waited until I could hold on any longer and decided that getting home was slightly more pressing than pushing myself over the obstacle so I missed this one also.

I'd discarded my heat blanket waiting for Everest, so I was determined to complete the final obstacle, Electroshock Therapy, this requires you to run through a set of wires that have a huge amount of volts coursing through them, when you get shocked it paralyses you for a second, with one of the shocks earthing through my penis, which was not particularly pleasant, as I exited it knocked me onto one knee and it was a final jog to the finish line to collect my headband, beer and t-shirt for finishing.

I collected my bag and quickly got changed before walking for the station, I realised I wouldn't have much time, so started thumbing a lift, luckily someone stopped to pick me up and dropped me in Wrenbury, they had also competed in the Mudder, so knew I'd be tired and glad of the lift. I picked up some food and headed for the station, as I waited, a couple of others turned up who had also been taking part and we shared stories of how we found it and all agreed that the underwater tunnels had been the worst part of the course.

As I was taking part, I said to myself and others that it would probably be the first and last one I did but as I sit here almost a week later and rested, I've already started planning the next one I'm going to do, this time however I will be better prepared, I will actually train for this one and I'll also train smarter rather than harder. Based on the clothing I was wearing to take part and the fact that although I'd watched videos of the obstacles, I was incredibly under prepared for exactly how much of a challenge the event actually is and as I put on Facebook, it was a challenge and at times an unpleasant one but sitting here thinking about it, that was really down to me, had I been better prepared and wearing better clothing, I would probably have enjoyed it more, still I did manage a time of around 4 hours 20 minutes which wasn't too bad for my first time.

So here's to the next on and me being much better prepared and ready for it.

Looks like the black dog is rearing its head

I've had a couple of down days, where I've not really been to the gym, or been bothered that I wasn't doing any exercise, I didn't rush for the ice cream or sweets but just thought, screw it, I'm done what am I bothering for, this is a waste of time, I couldn't pull myself out of the funk, I guessed it was my downswing to my upswing of late, it made me realise I can still have moments of depression that last long enough to almost throw me off my journey to a fitter me.

I managed to get out of bed early enough to attend Boxercise today, since through staying up late, or being extra tired, I've missed it for about three weeks, which was damned annoying, I still had a niggling give up feeling going on but I got in there and punched bags, kicked pads and ran, I then went into the gym and challenged myself to row ten miles on the rowing machine which I did but felt pretty drained afterwards, managing it in an hour and twenty two minutes, I may try for more miles in future but will be finding something softer to sit on, as the little seat starts getting really uncomfortable.

I'm so very close to being sub fourteen stone, to give up now, means I've wasted the last few months and I'm just not prepared to do that, I'm going to push myself on, since I felt much better once I'd finished at the gym and had a spot of really healthy lunch.

I am also going to take part in a Tough Mudder event in November, ten to twelve miles of obstacles, water and mud, it looks fantastic, the only problem I'm having is the travel, it seems there is no direct bus links between the nearest station and the event site, I also need to camp overnight as the earliest train wouldn't give me enough time to get there, still these are obstacles I'll overcome.

I think I may also start training for this event on Tuesday, the first day in May, which seems like as good a time as any and this should hopefully pull me out of the current funk

Starting to get there.

I recently had a good tidy of the bedroom and computer desk and discarded a whole heap of old items I no longer needed or wanted, mainly old cds for the Subway in store music system filled with mono pop hits, I also managed to find two power supplies I had thought lost, sadly my iPod didn't turn up.

Amongst the old receipts and cinema ticket stubs, I found weighing machine print offs. This was from the time I was in training for a road race, my parents who are very dedicated runners, thought it might be nice if my brothers and I took part in a race with them, so I bought some proper training shoes and started running and watching what I was eating.

The print offs, reminded me that I managed to get down to 14st 4lbs (200lbs) with a body fat ratio of 19.7% I only stopped watching was I was eating and training due to an injury I received walking the dog, I still did the race but stupidly didn't continue training.

It means that with my weigh in today at 14st 10lbs (206lbs) with body fat at 19.8% means I'm well on my way to weighing less than I did in 2007, it also means that if I continue on this journey, I'll end up being slimmer than I have been since I was a child, though I was never a slim child so it shouldn't be that hard..

Hopefully this time, I've changed my eating habits enough, that I'll not going back, to gourging on fast food and eating due to boredom.