Stop coasting through life, RIGHT NOW.

I seem to have reached a point where although I'm happy with my slimmer frame, I'm not really pushing myself as much as I should. I've tended to drift through life falling into one thing or another, after all I only got my new job after I was pushed into attending a job search course. So I seem to be getting a little slack in my exercising and dietary choices. Whenever I go swimming I only do breaststroke because its easier than front crawl and I can do a mile relatively easily, when I should be pushing myself to start doing front crawl, so I can get stronger in my swimming, I should be pushing myself when I'm on the treadmill, or rowing machine but keep telling myself, that I'm tired so that's why I'm not giving it more. The Boxercise class on a Saturday I'm trying to push myself but some of the exercises are leg work, so I'm not quite as quick as I'd like to be but I should push myself more so that like the swimming I can get stronger and therefore quicker at.

I'm no longer doing the Zumba class on a Monday because I'm weighing in that day and have work, so don't have the time anymore, the same on a Wednesday, although this is partly true, I'm using it as an excuse not to do the classes, when I should be pushing myself more, since I don't have much more weight to lose.
I'm also telling myself that because my bodybugg shows I've burned off additional calories that it doesn't matter if I eat more than I should, since hey look a calorie defict, although the way I'm going its been a handful of calories, rather than the amount which will help me continue to lose weight.

I've also gotten into an annoying habit at work, where if I have a break, I'm tending to eat something, it seems to be toast with some kind of meat, then having something sweet afterwards, since I only do five hour shifts and have a 15 minute break, this isn't too bad, its the days when I have longer shifts and therefore more breaks, I seem to be ingesting upwards of 800 calories, more if I get the urge for a chocolate bar or two. I can't seem to break out of the habit either, I do try and pick the healthiest options when it comes to the bread and meat but seem to be failing when it comes to not eating an unhealthy chocolate bar, I know I shouldn't be eating them but I guess I must have an impulse control issue when surrounded by all the sweet treats, it might be easier if I take something in with me to eat, or simply avoiding eating on my break, or minimise the amount I eat and having a piece of fruit or something.

Before I started the job, I was on a steady downward trajectory with my weight loss, then I started working and my loss seemed to stall, then I gained a couple of lbs, lost them, stayed the same for a couple of weeks, lost again and as of this morning, had gained 2 lbs again, so put me squarely back at 13st 9lbs. It just shows how easily the weight can creep back on if you aren't careful. So time to get back to being more careful with what I'm eating and avoid the chocolaty treats.

The night after the night before.

So last night, I had a few more drinks than I was planning on having and ordered a pizza, from one of the only places open at 3 am, Susan woke and decided she wanted a chicken burger, so we went with the one place that we thought didn't sell one of those crappy breadcrumb coated deep fried chicken burger but selling proper fillet chicken strips, that seem to be actual chicken breast in a bun with salad. It turned out to be the wrong place and the pizza was only just warm rather than piping hot but I didn't really care at that point that I just ate the thing.

Weirdly I didn't wake up with a raging hangover but merely felt very warm from the alcohol and feeling a little thirsty, I didn't feel hungry but I guess that was because of the pizza, so I had a cereal bar, a little more sleep before heading off to work, for a couple of extra hours. I came in from work and didn't feel like making anything, so when Susan suggested a takeaway from our favourite Indian place, I happily went with her suggestion, they got our order slightly wrong and we got an extra portion of rice rather than the delicious tikka starter but since they are such good quality we didn't mind too much.

It made me realise that drinking large quantities of booze causes me to not only eat takeaway on the night but also seems to have me wanting it the next day as well, this means I'll have to avoid drinking too often in future as I really want to avoid getting back into back habits.

Still I'm not denying myself some of the unhealthy foods, so it should make it easier to eat them less often.